You're the happiest soul. Your smile makes the dullest of days a little brighter. Always so content & happy to watch the world going on around you. I'd always heard people refer to some wee ones as "smiley babies" and although your big brother did have a lovely little smile too, he was never as smiley as you.
I've a confession to make. Before you were born, I was worried. Worried that given the tough pregnancy we had endured, that I'd struggle to bond with you when you did arrive. Right from the week after finding out you were slowly growing inside me, I was sick with crippling Hyperemesis Gravidarum. It lasted weeks, months... I was on a cocktail of anti-sickness tablets and in & out of hospital, off work for 9 weeks and bed ridden for more. Things didn't get any easier either. By the time the Hyperemesis improved, the SPD had kicked in. More weeks of agony & great difficulty in doing the simplest of tasks. Caring for myself whilst growing you was a challenge, never mind also caring for your big brother! In the end I had to start maternity leave earlier than planned. And although I wanted you to come when you were good & ready, I also prayed you wouldn't take too long.
Your Granny joked that you had to be an easy baby, given the hard time you gave me whilst you grew inside me. I hoped she was right but you had different ideas. Along you came - although your birth was fairly straight forward, I did have a bleed afterwards, meaning our 6 hour hospital stay turned into a 36 hour one. But then we were home and you were great. Such a happy chilled out soul. Until 3 weeks later, when we were back in hospital. Just when I thought we were getting that long over due easy-streak, you gave us one last tough time.
But those smiles. Those smiles that came early - you weren't even 5 weeks when the first one creeped onto your little chubby face. And since then you've barely spotted smiling. Each smile is a little reminder that you were worth it all. A little pat on the back for making it this far. A reassurance that despite everything we've been through, you (& I) are both just fine. A little bit of love from you, that makes me love you even more. So really, I had nothing to worry about. I just hope the smiles are now here to stay, my littlest one.
I've a confession to make. Before you were born, I was worried. Worried that given the tough pregnancy we had endured, that I'd struggle to bond with you when you did arrive. Right from the week after finding out you were slowly growing inside me, I was sick with crippling Hyperemesis Gravidarum. It lasted weeks, months... I was on a cocktail of anti-sickness tablets and in & out of hospital, off work for 9 weeks and bed ridden for more. Things didn't get any easier either. By the time the Hyperemesis improved, the SPD had kicked in. More weeks of agony & great difficulty in doing the simplest of tasks. Caring for myself whilst growing you was a challenge, never mind also caring for your big brother! In the end I had to start maternity leave earlier than planned. And although I wanted you to come when you were good & ready, I also prayed you wouldn't take too long.
Your Granny joked that you had to be an easy baby, given the hard time you gave me whilst you grew inside me. I hoped she was right but you had different ideas. Along you came - although your birth was fairly straight forward, I did have a bleed afterwards, meaning our 6 hour hospital stay turned into a 36 hour one. But then we were home and you were great. Such a happy chilled out soul. Until 3 weeks later, when we were back in hospital. Just when I thought we were getting that long over due easy-streak, you gave us one last tough time.
But those smiles. Those smiles that came early - you weren't even 5 weeks when the first one creeped onto your little chubby face. And since then you've barely spotted smiling. Each smile is a little reminder that you were worth it all. A little pat on the back for making it this far. A reassurance that despite everything we've been through, you (& I) are both just fine. A little bit of love from you, that makes me love you even more. So really, I had nothing to worry about. I just hope the smiles are now here to stay, my littlest one.
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