As well as being little
I know, I know... I'd be moaning if it was the other way around, if they didn't want cuddles or to be close to their Mummy. But shit, it's hard work. One clingy child is tough, two constantly attached to your leg, screaming should you mutter the words, "just one minute," well it's unbearable a times. And I feel rotten for feeling like that. But I'm just so bloody exhausted. I long for bedtime. I long for 5 minutes to sit and breathe, without being asked to name every character of Fireman Sam, without being bitten or snotted on...
I get that this comes across as ungrateful. I know there's people out there will think I'm being selfish and should appreciate what I have. And I do. I really, really do. But that doesn't make the 4th wake up of the night any easier. It doesn't stop the stress of a nearly 3 year old out screeching in the supermarket because he can't have a sweetie. And it doesn't help with the guilt of knowing I shouted too much today, or that I know I'll be asking if it's bedtime before lunchtime tomorrow.
Obviously, I know this is just a phase. That soon John will be rushing off to ask other people 21 questions, that soon David will be walking & it'll be in the direction away from me. And I know the sleepless night will end one day (please be sooner rather than later!). Until then, expect a loud sigh and "bloody exhausted" when you ask how we are.
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I can totally relate to this and I really think it's a boy thing. T has been climbing and jumping and whizzing and bouncing since the moment he could move. He is on the go all day and there is just no let up. I love his nap time and long for his bedtime. A on the other hand will sit quietly, had never really climbed and loves to just sit, read or draw. Boys are so different and having two must be utterly exhausting! x
ReplyDeleteThanks, Donna. I think it's definitely a boy thing! My Mum who had 3 girls just can't believe how on-the-go both boys are. She also agrees that boys are much more dependant on their Mummy's though and much more cuddlier than girls are. xo
ReplyDeleteI can sympathise as we're currently going through a phase of unsettled nights with our 9 month old. He's slept through since 4 months but recently a combination of teething and having been visiting over Xmas has led to broken nights, clinginess and generally wanting cuddles a lot at night. On the plus side he's very good during the day.
ReplyDeleteI'm functioning ok but I'm always tired just now. I'm looking forward to getting back to the 8-7 or 8-8 sleeps for sure.